Date night. Hubby and I went out to see not one but two movies; Battle Los Angeles and The Adjustment Bureau. They were okay. I liked the first one better than the latter. While I love our date nights, it was a very tough time for me on my weight loss journey. As soon as we walked into the theatre, what did I smell? You guessed it, popcorn, buttery popcorn. I wanted my usual salt, sugar, caffeine fix to go with the movie. My usual: popcorn, Raisinettes, and Coke. Blind munching for about two hours. Instead I had herbal tea and almonds. Initially I felt a little deprived. Then I took a moment to evaluate. I wasn’t hungry, it was customary to have these things in this setting. I would have to create a new habit.
After the movies we went to Chili’s. I wanted a margarita and buffalo wings. I wanted the waitress to hurry up and take my order while I still had the resolve to stay on track. Then a waiter with a plate of wings passed me. Arghh! Finally, Kenya appears and takes our order. I ordered salmon, broccoli, black beans and water with a twist of lemon. I felt relieved. I found myself wishing I was at home in my kitchen whipping up something that was tasty and that I was comfortable with.
The weekends are not my strong suit. I am much better Sunday through Thursday. I’m much like a little kid in that regard. I need structure and routine. I need for things to stay the same as much as possible. Although I survived it and made better choices over my typical route, I need to dig into this a little deeper and explore why dining out is so uncomfortable for me now.
The hard must become habit. The habit must become easy. The easy must become beautiful. ~Doug Henning